Me and RJ Knight have been working on videos for about easily over a year now. We have made a lot of videos in the time. Sadly, despite the length of time that we have been working on these videos, only around 20 have been released. This is with huge gaps been the releases and lower quality content. It’s been because of how difficult I’ve made it to develop and RJ has certain standards on effort.
I would like to start off by stating that it is entirely my fault that these videos have not been released.
The reality is that we have at least three hundred videos started that have not been released and are far from being put out. There are quite a few reasons why this is the case but I’m going to focus here on one. This one reason is probably the most inexcusable, is that 99% of this is my fault.
I messed up the audio for a large amount of these videos. Despite the fact that I have a lot of experience doing audio. I have solo music recordings. I’ve done sound for film student’s. I’ve done sound for Youtubers, and I’ve done live sound engineering at live shows. I was the one messing up the sound on a lot of these videos and given my experience it is very hard for rationalize.
– In a lot of these videos my voice is low. I’m really timid and I have a tendency to lower my voice when I’m uncomfortable ( I get uncomfortable extremely easily, so I lower my voice alot).
The issue is that I have a deep voice. Once I start lowering my volume it really gets lost. Humans perceive high pitched sounds around 1000k Htz as being louder. I should really know that I need to speak lower on these recordings.
Additionally we were recording on directional microphones. One of the features of directional microphones is called the proximity effect. This causes low frequencies to be captured better the closer the person is too the mich and vice versa. Since I was recording far away from the mic, I should have known that I needed o speak louder. These were all the reasons off my head that I should have know off the bat that I needed to speak louder.
Now the real thing that is inexcusable is that RJ kept telling me that I needed to speak louder and I couldn’t execute this. Literally I would start of at an appropriate level but quickly I would return back to being barely audible within a few minutes of recording. This goes back to my poor memory and awareness that I struggle with.
By having such poor audio recordings it both lowers the quality of the video and adds a lot of time to the editing process. Considering that on some of these videos we are trying to touch on timely material my mistakes costs us a lot. When you consider the sheer volume of content that we have to still process. I’ve cost a ton of time and opportunity.
There is alot more on this topic alone but I wanted to start by talking about one aspect of the problem. Right now I am not doing anymore videos but I would like to get back to being able to doing something that honestly I should be able to do but just struggle with.
This post is done so that I can own up to my mistakes. I don’t really change much if my mistakes are not clear for everyone to see. I want to stop hiding things and having them go on for along time. I am trying to do better with everything