I had a pretty good time yesterday (12, 23, 2016). I have a quite a few problems but I possible don’t have to worry about dying as much so that opens up some options. I am a bit more refocused, emotionally I am now starting to mend some of the issues that have developed over time. Mostly the positive development is due to space from Micheal. Its taken a lot of time to get this space, I mean really aggressive pushes since October and nothing else just to get time to start dealing with the fatalistic issues that hvae developed since I met him.
Yesterday, I was feeling more emotionally stable, don’t know how long that will last but the orientation is good. He’s been pushing space but being there so he can work on being his own person. Decoupling and fixing the dependency, again its really helped me over the last few months work on my emotional state. Not perfect as I did damage my hand not too long ago due to the maxed out problems in a rare emotional outburst. The abnormal behavior can get pretty bad and its hard on my managing all of this all the time to the point of literally no sleep.
So that puts in context how good my day was. From the talk yesterday (with Michael) and the pushes mostly on my end and re-developing myself from top to bottom, I was able to go to Catalyst Bible study and have a solid time. Michael doing his best to interact normally which made me happy and I was able to interact as necessary and find time to go pray downstairs. Plus practice a few drawings which showed me that I probably should draw when feeling absolutely uninspired.
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